c'est la vie

Spend the whole week trying to get myself back i shape. As in, back in shape due to being brokenhearted. There were just days I wanted to sleep in all day and wished that i didn't have to drag my petty short, fat, stumpy legs out of bed.

And so the only way was to keep telling myself:

"CLOSE YOUR EYES.
CLEAR YOUR HEART.
LET IT GO."
But anyway I suppose it was a good thing. We didn't know that much of each other. Nor did we have much in common. And it wasn't like he made any effort to get to know me either. Cannot complain about me, because I'm always a busybody in front of everybody.

Surprised I got over this one faster than I thought I would have. The last time this occurred was only last year and it took me about 6 months to a year to get it off my back for good. One month should be just good this time round then. :)

And then I came to this (silly) conclusion that maybe it has nothing to do with the boys, maybe I I'm not ready for love.
I thought this up because a few days after this stupidlittleincident, one of my uni mates sort of tried to comfort me and he suggested that I should have him as backup so that no one would disturb me lol, such a thick faced boy ahahaha..

And then, I wasn't ready to give him an answer since we're just uni mates in different departments and we barely see each other these days, I never actually thought of us as more than friends. I'm just not ready to give him a definite answer yet. And then at night I was thinking and thinking, and by morning I felt pretty drained out with it all and suddenly I lost mood to deal with boys and love. So, thats that, I shall clear my head and get back to my first love, clothes, fashion, and pretty things in no time :D

Don't seek, don't search, don't ask, don't knock, don't demand - relax. If you relax, it is there. If you relax, God shows you the way.
Oh that reminds me, time for YEAR2, I gotta choose my darn major. Marketing or International Business hum dee dum.. or maybe Finance but that's a possible no.


Last night you left me and slept
your own deep sleep. Tonight you turn
and turn. I say,
"You and I will be together
till the universe dissolves."
You mumble back things you thought of
when you were drunk.

-Rumi-


CLOSE YOUR EYES.CLEAR YOUR HEART.LET IT GO.